So here's the deal, I haven't posted in a while...dumb! I blame school mostly for taking up all of my time :) But I suppose that's a good thing. I mean I am at college to learn right? Anyways... So this semester has not turned out even close to how I have wanted it to. I thought that I would come out here focus on school and myself and life would be all peachy keen. Wrong. Wanna know why? You probably guessed it.. guys. Now I have been single for about three years now and have been content with that, and happy. I didn't want a boyfriend. Then I decided it would be a good idea to have a crush on my best friend.. I thought it was a good idea at the time, but then it didn't work out.. life goes on. Then I thought it would be a good idea to be in an actual relationship with someone I barely knew.. wrong again.. that is another story. All in all the moral of this story is that dating sucks. The end.
Now its back to me, myself and I.. oh joy...I think. Well sometimes its a joy.. other times it sucks. I got really good at being single, I mean a pro. Now I don't know how I did it... Reverse button? Yeah, if only that were real. Anyways. So I decided that it would be a good idea to take all of my boring psych classes, humanities and international econ all in the same semester to get it over with. Oh you know, it just is probably even dumber then dating. I will say though, I do know that I will never EVER use economics in my life because it's all a bunch of assumptions that don't process in my mind, and I will never be a test developer for psychological tests. Those are the only things that I can be sure of in life at the moment besides I know I am supposed to be a psych major and I know that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints is true. Everything else is uncertain, namely: career, family, if I'm supposed to stay here or go home for summer, if I should go on a mission, and many many other things. Sometimes I wonder if I am even going to make it to graduate school. Yeah, pretty scary that I only have three more semesters after this one.
So I decided that I want a change of scenery for next semester, you know different side of campus. I "applied" for Tuscany, and didn't realize that I needed to actually pay my deposit in order to have a contract. Funny story, went to go pay my deposit and they told me I had to go on a waiting list. My good friend Emily did the same thing. Amy was the only one who actually paid so now she is living without us. I decided to buy a contract for Carriage house again, which might be a good idea, except its not giving me a change of scenery.. meaning people.. LAME! So here I am hoping and praying that people will cancel their contracts so that I can move to Tuscany.. what do you think my chances are if I am 12th on the waiting list? Haha yeah 50%... grrrr. One day I will have security in my life.. but apparently that isn't supposed to be the plan for me right now. Good thing I trust Jesus, or else this would be a pretty bad situation.
In closing... yeah can you tell I have been in school for two months? Love is blind, until you wake up and smell the roses and realize it wasn't really love in the first place. You can't put yourself out there without getting hurt. Life is too short to be sad or angry so live every moment as happy as you can. Families are forever, and Jesus loves you. The end.
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