Love As I See It.

So last night Amy and I were having another one of our deep life conversations and I got to thinking about what falling in love really is. It has always seemed to me that when you fall in love it will be this miraculous, huge, in your face thing. I guess you could say that about revelation though. Everyone expects it to be huge, when usually it's small and simple. So here is what I see falling in love as. For me I know it will be with my best friend. I mean that whole love at first sight thing might be some couples destiny, but I know for a fact it's not going to be mine. He will know me better than I know myself even, and understand me. It's not going to be a huge miracle or a sudden cupid stuck and arrow in my butt kinda thing, but something that progresses. I think that this whole time I have been looking at this from the wrong angle. You don't look around for people JUST to date, or date people who are JUST interested in you as more than friends.. well at least not in my case. See the thing is, that's what I have always done in the past and it has never worked. Either we don't have anything in common, they don't get me, they have some ex-girlfriend that they're trying to get over, or they are just not good for me. I have always kept up these barriers I like to call my safe little walls that I hide behind, so that I won't fall in love with the wrong person. Once they make a mistake that's relatively detrimental to a future with them or not, the walls come flying up and they don't come down no matter how much they try and convince me they aren't a bad guy. It's a defense mechanism I suppose, but the next step is actually going, and not sticking around to see it get worse. The man that I fall in love with, will be my best friend. The man that I fall in love with with love me, and only me. One day I will wake up and know that I love him, one day. I look forward to that day. We all think that this dating game thing can be mastered, but really it can't. There are so many different people, and so many different personalities. When it doesn't work, there is a reason, and that reason is not that you suck at playing this game called dating, but that you just played the wrong card. It could be a number of different things.. the wrong guy, the wrong time, or the wrong place. All I know is that God knows, and He will give us the path that we need to find that one. He will tell us when it's right, and He will tell the other person that it's right. So that's Love as I see it.