Loneliness is the most awful kind of pain.

Have you ever felt utterly and completely alone, lost with no where to turn? Well welcome to the worlds of all human existence around you. When I was younger, I often felt like I was the only person who understood how I felt. Where do you go? Who do you turn to? For the non religious, the answer would be to their friends and family. For the religious, the correct answer is always Jesus Christ, who suffered all the pains that we would ever feel. I will admit, when I go to him I feel better, but sometimes it would be nice to have a physical body next to me. I have learned and acquired the bad habit I guess you could say of fearing any type of commitment, any type of bind. This is due to the lack of real and genuine people in my life. Hello, not one of my relationships with a guys have ever worked out, and I have been given "best friends" that decide to come and go as they please and choose to treat me any way they please and expect me to be okay with it. I will admit that I have and never will be a perfect angel, but I would never wish this pain on anyone. It seems to be a recurring cycle, so its time that I put an end to it. Why do I tell you this? Well our world needs to wake up and smell the roses. We can't just keep going around and treating people the way we feel like at that moment, we can't keep judging, we can't keep hurting people. I read a quote a couple weeks ago that really made sense.

"If you're going to love me, love me deeply. If you're going to break my heart, then break it all. If you're going to care, care for me completely. If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall. If you're going to stay, then stay forever and if you want to leave, then do it today. If you're going to change, change for the better. And if you're going to talk, mean what you say."

We all keep dancing around peoples feelings, or not caring either way. Its time to be real people I mean come on. I guess thats why they say you meet your best friends in college. I have been truly blessed with some of the most amazing young women in my life who I consider my best friends. They keep me sane, they get me through it. I thank God for them everyday. When you get something that is wonderful, never stop being thankful, never take it for granted because there will be a point in your life where you will need them. Shout out to my best friends! I LOVE YOU Lacey, Lauren, Kortney, Cindy, Leah, Marlene, Rachel <3 You girls make my life worth living <3We all have trials and struggles in life, but everyone does. Look around you, make a difference, make someones day, make someones life. Loneliness is an awful kind of pain, lets cut it short in its tracks.